Hello, Everyone! I'm back! I've been busyy, starting out as a sophomore was hard...lol. And that shane kid is no longer around, don't care anymore. But i got's a new lover. His name be travis ryan gould, and i'm sure he'll stay around for awhile. i love him. He's the best guy around:]. He makes me happyz and that's all that matters. He's pretty awesome. the only thing i don't like is...he'll be leaving in about a year to go to the airforce:'[. But we've decided to make the best of the time we have left together. And he's met my strict parents, and so far my mom likes him, and my dad tolerates him. He's a good guy:] I got a new photo since last:] my other one i look terrible in lol. had to get a new one i'll post at the bottom of this. Everyone here's good i guess. I got a new car that i won't be able to drive for awhile cause it need TLC. but hey its a car, and i'm only sixteen. Well i'll try to get on more, just keep commenting:] Kmuchloves. ~shondalou<3~

P.s. Here's the Foto's!

Here's my baby! I wuvz himmm!   And there's the new me. Changed alot:] aww how cute are we:] Coomment

 

I am completely confused.

I love Shane...because he always know how to make me smile. He's always somewhat there. but then he can be an ass, and make me want to committ suicide, Jerr tells me to drop him, but i can't drop the one i love, that would be like destroying a big part of me. i mean we aren't exactly dating but you can love someone before you date. he likes me and i like him. and we do say we love each other, but does he actually mean that in the way that i do. He knows i have a HUGE crush on him, and he just makes me soo happy, i don't know what to do anymore. he means soo much to me, i CAN'T&&WON'T drop him. NOT happening. He means too much to me. im a sucker for this boyy=], not the dirty way either, i just REALLY REALLY like him, not in the obsessive way. i just really really like him. He's my everything, all i want to do is sit on the phone for HOURS with him, and i can too. He's just sooo amazing. I just don't see my future without him sometimes. He's my shane! I am in complete utter confusement. I don't know what to do anymore. i love that boyy to death, i would give my life up for him, give my heart to him, anything to keep him. He's sooo wonderful. I just hope my parents and siblings love him as much as i do. He keeps me happy and i hope they see that, because when im on the phone with him my mouth just can't help itself but smile at the sound of his voice, or laughter. He's SOOO AMAZING! I would die if i lost him. My life would not exist anymore. He only see's the true me. NO ONE else knows how i feel about him more than me, and Jerr can't see that it would be like her without Casey, and she says she would be nothing without him so i don't know.  I reallyyyy Hope things get better and we stop fighting. This is more than i have wrote about anyone=].

Kbye.

Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Xanga... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!" :-)